Dumbing Down?

“You’re so white”.

It’s amazing how one sentence…three simple words, which on their own, really mean next to nothing, can be so profound and eye-opening when strung together in such a way. This one, simple but oft times offensive, albeit life-changing sentence is one that I have heard many times over my 31 young years. Now, I am very proud of my background and culture. I love that I have strived to become educated, and continue to do so, despite multiple hardships. I admire that I carry myself with respect, dignity, and class. Above all, I relish my achievements, against everybody’s unwelcome but freely-spoken disparagements, I have overcome and I have achieved more than anybody at one point that it was possible for me to do. But, despite, or maybe in spite of all of my accomplishments…I AM NOT WHITE!

I am black, but I will leave that alone for now.

So, I refer back to the GhettoNation book discussion that I wrote about before. As I was watching this discussion, one person in the audience started talking about how she has to "Dumb Down" between work and home because her "peeps" thinks she acts too "white". When the author provoked her more, the young lady in the audience explained that at work she is very cheerful, energetic, and willing to help out when needed. At home, she feels like she has to behave in a certain manner in order to be accepted. If she says “hello” to a passerby, her friends look at her sideways. If she reads a book that is not perceived to be a “black book” then she is questioned. The young lady continued on to say that in order to fit in, she just changes her persona…she is one person at work and a totally different person at home…a challenge that she is not sure she is up to continuing.

I can empathize with this young lady. I know exactly what she is going though, how she feels, and the struggles she still has left to endure. I have had to live with the same issues and accusations my whole life as well. I still continue to fight with the demons of my acceptance. Watching this discussion and hearing this young lady talk about her need…he desire to fit in and be accepted by her own people got me to thinking…Exactly what is "Acting White" and "Acting Black" what does "Dumbing Down" mean? I mean, as professional black individuals, do we really have to "Dumb Down" in order to be recognized by our black counterparts?

I will be the first to admit that I am completely, without a question, guilty of this. I am very refined, professional, and almost bourgeois when I am at work. I laugh and smile at the corny jokes, I wear the “uniform”…muted colored, casual, yet preppy, not-quite-so dressed up look, and I put that high…almost squeaky, inflection in my words that gives an essence of pertness and vigor. All this “fakeness” helps me to fit in at work…a world where I am successful and coveted for my experience and knowledge. When I am around my friends, I chill a bit more. There is more slouch in my posture, more slang in my vocabulary, and in general, just a bit more ruggedness in my overall demeanor. I bump my music as onlookers bob their heads, I speak with the vernacular of the streets, even though I fight to stay current with the ever-changing, and even more confusing slang of the week. No matter which situation I’m faced with, I struggle to fit in…always on the edge of being discovered and portrayed as the fraud that I am. The little mixed-breed mulatto…searching for acceptance.

Back to the discussion…Cora Daniels asked that young lady in her audience where she felt more comfortable…at work or at home. Without so much as a blink of her eye, the young lady stated “At home”.
“Than that is who you should be”, Cora proclaimed. That simple…but was it really? That made me begin to take a long hard look at my life and who I am…what defines me or what is it that I allow to define me?

Looking at my life and who I am as a person, I can say that I definitely think I speak proper. I articulate my thoughts and pronounce my words. I use proper noun-verb agreement and actually understand what a past predicate and present participle is as well as how and when to use them. To my friends, I am speaking “white”. I never quite understood what that meant...to me, it is simply speaking proper English. I also try to behave in a manner in which I would like to be treated. I speak and smile when I pass somebody. I hold the door for people and I read…a lot. Some people (mainly my black friends) call that speaking or acting "White". I call it simply being proper, polite, educated, and friendly.

Unfortunately, it does not appear that is how “we” as a people see it. In my opinion, that is what continues to hold us back. We constantly say how we can never get ahead and we blame everything but "us" for this...the white man, statistics, economy, and our surroundings. We never look within ourselves to see what we can change... It seems like there is more praise when we do wrong, because we are "keeping it real" than when we do right or do "white"...so much so that it kills me. It kills the essence of who we are as a people. It kills the struggle that we have fought so hard over the years. It kills the future that our ancestors died trying to create for us.

Besides, living two lives is exhausting, so in the end, I choose to just be one person…me. Take it leave it…love it or hate it…or whichever cliché you choose to allocate. Where am I more comfortable? At home…where I can shed the costume and the mask of my other personas and truly just exist. Where I listen to jazz and neo-soul, hip-hop, rock, and classical. Where I curl up with a great book and drink herbal tea. Where I can practice yoga and meditate. Where I can just be me. This is where I am most comfortable.

I am tired of constantly being accused of sounding, acting, and thinking “white”. But I choose now to ignore it and live my life the way that I see fit. I will never truly understand what this statement means in the way that it has been posed to me. The dictionary definition of the slang meaning of white is “decent, honorable, or dependable”. If that is what people are implying when they declare that I am too “white”, then I will nod my head and cheerfully, albeit whitely agree…

What is "ghetto"?

I watched a book discussion on CSPAN the other night. The discussion was with author Cora Daniels on her new book, GhettoNation: A Journey into the Land of Bling and the Home of the Shameless (http://http://www.coradaniels.com/). In her book, Cora discusses what the word Ghetto means and how, as a people, we are too involved in ghetto mentality. Cora opened up the discussion by asking what the word "ghetto" means. The author asked the audience what they thought the word meant and most people stated something negative...people talking too loud and showing off in public...people driving nice cars with rims and tricked-out systems, but living with their parents...playing music too loudly...etc. This seemed to be the mainstream view of the term "ghetto". The author stated that most people considered the term "ghetto" to mean a "black thing", but to her, ghetto transcended race lines and socio-economic status. She claimed that people like Paris Hilton and Lindsay Lohan can be just as ghetto as anybody else...that their antics and behavior can equate to what one would consider ghetto. That was the basis of the discussion and got me to thinking about what ghetto is and what the term means.

I will admit that I have been guilty of using the term myself. I don't know what to call certain behavior but that word seems to stick. I know it is not the right word but the term "inappropriate" or "annoying" just doesn't seem to do this type of behavior justice. I guess ghetto is not just a black thing. It is a word that describes when somebody...anybody does something inappropriate... but the word has taken on a very negative connotation...even a racial one.

It's funny (not really)...the word nigger was not originally intended to be a racial or pejorative word, but it is a word that has historically been used to denigrate blacks over the decades, therefore it has taken on a racially derogatory connotation. I see the same thing happening for the word ghetto. The word ghetto does not mean poor, black neighborhood or behavior. The origin of the word comes from early Italy and the Venetian Ghetto where Jews lived. The word also transcended to refer to the neighborhood where Jews were held before eventually being sent to concentration camps. Over the years, the term has come to mean any location where the minority is segregated to. While, this does not necessarily mean black people, the term has come to be more commonly used when referring to black, low-class neighborhoods.

So, what makes somebody, or something ghetto? I guess this all depends on personal opinion and is all very subjective. I recently asked a friend of mine what he thought the word ghetto meant and he stated that a ghetto is just a neighborhood...that's it, but that is always refers to something negative when it is said. He stated that, "Ghetto to me is like nigga, on a lower level." To me, I would think that means that the same derogatory affects that the word nigga has for us (regardless of who says it...that is another story that I will save for another day...), the word ghetto is starting to have.

I leave the rest up to you...what does the word ghetto mean to you?